Not sure how this will go down here but here goes. Its a bit of a waffle and not at all about sewing.
I had short sharp dose of the January blues over the weekend. Its hard to describe but I generally get some each year. I spent most of Sunday hardly daring to talk as it would just come out as yelling or tears. I don't know what caused it and thankfully it only lasted one day.
It sort of started on Friday which is generally my social day. I have some friends who work but have same age children and now that the children are at school I love the fact that they still want me to come round with my little one and catch up. I get to glimpse the world of work and I think they get a link back into full time motherhood. It works out well on both sides. First stop was to a friend who often travels lots with work so she was discussing her next trip. In the afternoon it was to a friend who while working sings as part of a duo with her partner. Both are fantastic women and I admire them greatly and what they do. I was then greeted with an email form an old friend who wanted to know what I had been doing over the last 3 years. That doesn't seem much to set off the January blues but as I replied to that email I found I had little to say. I have 3 kids now but then I got stuck. Suddenly there seemed few achievements and so did I mention I now have 3 kids? With the January blues it suddenly seemed like I had done nothing over the last 8 years! Of course now the blues passing I see that I have achieved lots, mostly being that I have 3 healthy happy kids and that I chose not to work and to be at home with them but I spent the whole weekend trying to work out how I could say that I now have 3 kids in a long and interesting way.
I have the sort of personality that goes up and down and the "up" defiantly make the "downs" o.k. ts taken me a long tie to know that being like that is ok. This week is going better as I feel the relief that the blues did not last long. But then i hurt my back, and then the car broke down while on the school run.......but will I be defeated?....... well not yet anyway!